Baby owh babyy

owh baby dalam perut mama ni, mama harap sgt baby dapat 'turun' ke laluan dengan selamat dan sejahtera..bukan apa, bukan ke waktu check awal minggu aritu doc ishak da cakap yg jalan dah buka, cuma baby je yg masih terawang2 lagi kat atas tu..al kisahnye if baby da turun, mmg skrang ni kita tengah berbicara secara live la...

baby, mama doa byk2 pada Allah moga dipermudahkan segalanya untuk kita berdua..if baby nk dok lama skit dlm perut mama ni pon takpe, mama no hal tapi when the right time comes baby turun la yea, mama harap takde la floating sgt mcam abang zikry..

mama tau baby is a good boy, sbb waktu mama tulis ni pon mama can feels ure kicking me inside, i know ure trying to show some feedback to me..

cant wait to meet you..:)

Menghitung hari..

alhamdulillah im at my mid 37 weeks now..kalo ikotkan time zikry, dah kua da ni, this baby my gynae said if by 38th weeks there's not yet sign of natural delivery, i might need to be induced..

reason being, my placenta is already ripening and nearly completing its maturity..once it's kinda overipened, thus is will indirectly affecting its efficiencies in assisting the baby in terms of providing good filteration for baby's urine and etc..

jadi saya ini sedang dalam mode pasrah lah nampaknya..bukan apa, kalo diizinkan Allah, saya takmo la induce, byk version saya dengar induce ni sakit..mmg la bersalin tu sakit kan,takleh lari mana unless youre under drugs perscription-epidural etc..

so conclusion nye saya rase i have to tune back those 'small talks' in this little brain of mine..either way pon mmg kene go through that pain so might as well endure sajalah..*but hoowwwww? haaaaa..banyak2 ingatkan Allah, dan yakinlah segala aturanNya itu adalah yang terbaik untuk kita, mudah mudahan..amiiinnn

Epidural-Yes or No

Mengenangkan episode zikry bersalin, hmm memang rasenya vote Yes to epidural..

Flashback-zikry is still floating although dah engage. bukaan da full, jadi proses teran tu double, first nak teran dia ke pintu then only teran untuk keluarkan dia..the process, takyah cakapla, siap ada adegan meneran sambil mengereng lagi, huwaaaa

Mengenangkan 'keegoan' diri, vote No to epidural..

so seri la sekarang nampaknya.

hmm right now hanya mampu berdoa ajelah, tapi tengok la mode of delivery canne..if doc decide nak induce, might as well perhaps i will consider epidural hugely in my decision making.

if jadi kembar air insyaAllah, moga-moga dipermudahkan jalan keluar baby maka i will try my best not to take epidural..

but i guess the biggest obstacle is myself...this tiny brain of mine pon asyik feeding painful stories to myself, might as well me rase mcm chicken out a bit?

Ya Allah bimbingla saya ke jalan yang Engkau ketahui paling baik untuk kita, amiiinnn

so end result masih seri la ni....huwwaaa

Breast pump yang ok?

baby ni saya bertekad untuk breast feeding.

so saya pon berjalan2 la survey breast pump yang sesuai for myself, considering that it is one of the accessories needed in completing my mission, hihihihih

tapi hubby ckap, going for too many window shopping will not assist dalam memperbanyakkan susu badan..hahahha, kelakar lak ayat tu tapi i objected gak, i said says who..my theory is, when we window shopped, we're kinda happy, relaxed and it will definitely promotes to breast milk production..!

balik pada topic tu, im torn in between avent single elect pump or medela freestyle terus. i preferred avent but the reviews didnt really sided them but weighed more towards medela brand..so tu yang dalam dilemma ni..
ingat nak beli satu yang i deemed reliable and need not to worry much about it later on,put aside milk production but in terms of the breastpump itself,-cepat rosak ke, ada parts dia cpt haus ke, tu semua la tu...

anyhow, i guess i still have time to consider, consider and consider..harap2 berjaya la mission kali ni, insyaAllah!

8 months and loads of pounds heavier!

im at my 32 weeks now, mengah!

still with my daily routine, to n fro kl, by bus luckily, if the condition requires than kene go by car la..

for now am sustaining the hardships, masih bole lagi but already jalan like tellytubbies, hey mind you, im trying to stabilize my G-point now, hehe..

cuma third baby ni ( second although miscarriage i still consider its my second child ), mmg ada kelainan nya berbanding sewaktu carried Zikry dulu..

1) although i shed off pounds yang gained waktu carry zikry dulu, still waktu confinement i gained weights,jadi back to square one! sob sobbb
2) dulu dengar je org kata if preg bila umur dah tua sket, akan rase cepat penat,now im experiencing it, but luckily masih boleh tolerate lagi..huh!
3) agak cranky juga, but with certain ppl, annoyed ones of course, hehe compared waktu carry zikry dulu i was more patient!
4) working atmosphere is different than before, therefore it has its own challenges in its own league, so behold!

hmm kalo nak list down mmg panjang la, cukup la tu, heheh

kalo ikot zikry dulu lahir awal 2 weeks, jadi kalo ikut EDD baby ni, maknanya end Oct la yea?

tak kisahla, asalkan baby lahir tu sihat, cukup sihat no complications, im happy enough..alhamdulillah mudah-mudahan..amiiin..

apabila sudah jobless..

hmm..

intonation sewaktu membaca title itu haruslah berada dalam kebingungan..
apa taknya, ive never been not busy for so many years, study, work , catching up here and there and voila! sudddenly im busy at doing nothing!

sampai at one point saya migraine sebab saya tak buat apa2...hahah, kalau sebelum ni its the other way around now it seemes like thats not the case anymore..mmg pening la,kalo sebelum ni time is chasing me but now its like im lost in the time machine..

ok tapi statement atas ni haruslah dengan condition exclude jaga anak! what i meant right now is time for yourself, your career upbringing, for past 5 years i was so engrossed with what i do best, and getting into different upcoming challenges each time, dalam kata lain brain tu sentiasa di asah la..

sekarang brain agak tumpul la..waaaaaaa waaaaaaa

luckily cepat2 ada back up plan, bussiness walaupon tak besar, part time trading/import export consultancy ( whatta heck, im with engineering background tapi layan ajelah, since tak lari jauh mana pon, janji social skills ok ), im pretty much busy again..

cuma busy ni is at my own time la, meaning kalo rase nak baring bole la baring, takde la kalo dulu rasa nak baring then kene tunggu after office hours, beat the traffic drive back home baru bole baring, opps tu lom lagi kalo nak kene masak ke or layan zikry main..

dalam erti kata lain- blessing in disguise la yea..itulah dia, aturan Allah, qada n qadar itu kalo boleh jangan dipertikaikan ( this is a reminder to myself ), eventho at first ive had strong feelings against me resigning at mid-peak of my career, i personally believe Allah has much bettter plan for me in the long run..mudah-mudahan insyaAllah..now i know what ppl meant by inner happiness..contentment.

Euro Trip 2011

Afrer 4 years of leaving Europe, im back again!

sgt excited, bukan apa, teringat memories lama, kira cam down memory lanes la..ehhe

but this time the trip is even more meaningful to me, since i'll be going with my loved ones and extended families...jadi the more the merrier la kan?

preparation in fact took months before..although takde la prepare gempak2 sgt but since lots of points and factors, twist n turns, currencies need to be taken care off, so prepare la apa2 yang patut..

nasib la ive been to those countries before, so more less bole anticipate la what might happened, i guess 4 years advanced wont be changing so many things..

so off we go for 2 wks time- London->Paris->Switz->England

tiring? mmgla, dalam keadaan dealing with morning sickness, kerenah zikry lg, but luckily suma family members lend their hands in the tasks..maunye tak, ngan pram, bottles, formula milk, pampers, so we were so handful..jadi cousins pon chipped in la apa2 yg patut..thanks guys!

down the memory lanes, I realized that whatever hardships ive endured during those years, ups n downs, mostly faced alone are all bloody worth it! thanks Allah, parents and families for everything that've been sacrificed for my wellbeing during those wonderful years..xoxox

no entry for 2011? aparaa

hahah...bukan tak masuk internet, tapi just am lazy to punch in lines, pemalas betul kan, if nak consider sebok, start bulan March dah tak sebok dah, sebok buat mende2 yg menggembirakan ada la..although kadang2 semak kepala, tapi hey who doesnt? name me one person yg takde masalah, and that person is either a big fat bloody liar or insane...

zikry tengah tido skrang and hubby hasnt got back yet, which gives me a slot for myself. close the tv, minimize facebook and here i am..dulu ada la cita2 nak jadi penulis, zaman remaja muda belia dulu ada la hantar2 ke mag or suratkhabar artikel2 ni, ada yg kene siar, ada yg tak, hatred mail pon penah but with full name and address tau..buatkan orangnye keje karangan, essays, jadi co editor majalah kolej, and so on..but end up jadi technical slave-engineer. i wonder what've made me push towards that direction.nak kat money...dont think so. nak kata time?geez not at all, passion? with all the kamiran and functions? hell no! so what?

maybe it was my late brother in law. when i took aerodynamics, he sort off laughed me off in a good way, challenged me, hey sis in law, are you sure you can do it? him being a graduate from US with sponsorship from gov was a successful one, but at that time maybe i was too naive to absorb what kind of pressure he was facing..and unfortunately, that was what caused his death part of sudah sampai ajal..

jadi..now im turning leaf. to what direction pulak? entahla....

Bali

we have always dreamt of going to Bali Indonesia. tapi cam biasa la, ada few things nak kene settle dulu, work, time, hutang, money constraint, so the plan was taking backseat all way long. until one day i saw an ad by the famous low cost airline, which actually offered good and resonable price so i called hubby and he said "well...ooooo kk.." although he might sounded slightly skeptical at that time, macam ada doubt tapi do i care? hahahahahh..another reason-sambut 2nd birthday Zikry..haaa..i love being ridiculous!

so ticket pon ber book. when i compared the price with my sister who had been there, she said it was cheap. so it was quite a bargain then. that was what ive been bragging to dear hubby to eliminite those doubts!hehe..suprisingly it works..or perhaps he already got knackered of me telling the same thing all over again..

jadi pagi tu, abah yg tlg hantar ke airport. we were quite excited. sbb last year, we did not go anywhere for hols, considering zikry is still so small.jadi trip at early year ni sounds perfect to lift up the mood for the rest of the year ( that was solely my opinion, not hubby's! heheeh)

we were at Bali for 4 days n 3 nights. boy it rained cats n dogs. tapi managed jugak la nak jalan2 at famous popi street 1 & 2. didnt shop much sbb this trip we agreed to relax more then spending more..

at first nak dok kat area my sister suggested which was pretty nice..but that was 2 years ago. skrang ni bile baca balik review dia travellers comment dah ada dogs poo lat kat beach, kinda dirty and so on. so myself terpaksa la revoke that booking and back to square one.

since kiterang pegi tu weekend, jadi most of the places were already fulled. yang tak full plak, kiterang tak mampu...so carik punya carik, dpt la this one hotel depan Kuta beach-Kuta Seaview and Spa boutique hotel. bole la..decoration was nice, since we wanted seaview, dia letaknya kitorang kat 3rd floor. ha amik ko, mind you, without elevator tau...heheh, takpe..anggap je la exercise.hongeh gak rasenya..

all in, trip was fine, zikry enjoyed it most, he loves beach but without the waves..mana bole, takpe i'll train him to love it like how his mama and baba do..