It's been way too long!

laaaa 2013 dah nak masuk 4th quarter, baru la terhegeh-hegeh nak update blog.. bukan saja, tak sengaja atau disengajakan..memang blog ni dah ber-link pun di mobile phone, tetapi.. ok i have thousands of reasons of it, do you really want to hear it? i know u don't, me neither! thiiihiii my Sept month resolution- to update my blog frequently. there are so many things revolving around me..pretty exciting n exhilarating u see..eh i know u can't actually see..u reaaad.. alamak apa yang membebel ni, but truly am happy to be back in this confined space of mine.. *blessed...

Welkommen Muhammad zhafril aka apprill

1/11/2011.time of delivery?1330 hours.weight?3.57 kg(phewww).height?56cm(bergulung2 in my tummy).mode of delivery?-normal,vacuum 3 times,forceps and emergency ceasarian (yess,all of d above,those were not options ye): bukaan sudah full my zhafril has its own set of mind..dia mahu diangkat keluar rather than ikut channel biasa..frankly,i did not see its coming,i mean ceasar,punyalah confident yg akan normal tp ghupe2nye idak le..itulah namanya manusia hanya mampu merancang..eventho dh fully dilated cervix tu,siap nampak rambut dah,3 x cuba vacuum n pakai forceps smpai kuar2 la urat hijau macho si doctor (according to hubby),tapi bukanlah rezeki zhafril n mama utk melahirkan secara normal..pasrah memang la,redha..tp bila ubat bius wore off,meraung juga..especially when ive experienced both method,bole la myself compare pain dia..takpelah yg penting zhafril selamat,altho dia bertapa agak lama di birth canal,syukur ya Allah,alhamdulillah..

Baby owh babyy

owh baby dalam perut mama ni, mama harap sgt baby dapat 'turun' ke laluan dengan selamat dan sejahtera..bukan apa, bukan ke waktu check awal minggu aritu doc ishak da cakap yg jalan dah buka, cuma baby je yg masih terawang2 lagi kat atas tu..al kisahnye if baby da turun, mmg skrang ni kita tengah berbicara secara live la...

baby, mama doa byk2 pada Allah moga dipermudahkan segalanya untuk kita berdua..if baby nk dok lama skit dlm perut mama ni pon takpe, mama no hal tapi when the right time comes baby turun la yea, mama harap takde la floating sgt mcam abang zikry..

mama tau baby is a good boy, sbb waktu mama tulis ni pon mama can feels ure kicking me inside, i know ure trying to show some feedback to me..

cant wait to meet you..:)

Menghitung hari..

alhamdulillah im at my mid 37 weeks now..kalo ikotkan time zikry, dah kua da ni, this baby my gynae said if by 38th weeks there's not yet sign of natural delivery, i might need to be induced..

reason being, my placenta is already ripening and nearly completing its maturity..once it's kinda overipened, thus is will indirectly affecting its efficiencies in assisting the baby in terms of providing good filteration for baby's urine and etc..

jadi saya ini sedang dalam mode pasrah lah nampaknya..bukan apa, kalo diizinkan Allah, saya takmo la induce, byk version saya dengar induce ni sakit..mmg la bersalin tu sakit kan,takleh lari mana unless youre under drugs perscription-epidural etc..

so conclusion nye saya rase i have to tune back those 'small talks' in this little brain of mine..either way pon mmg kene go through that pain so might as well endure sajalah..*but hoowwwww? haaaaa..banyak2 ingatkan Allah, dan yakinlah segala aturanNya itu adalah yang terbaik untuk kita, mudah mudahan..amiiinnn

Epidural-Yes or No

Mengenangkan episode zikry bersalin, hmm memang rasenya vote Yes to epidural..

Flashback-zikry is still floating although dah engage. bukaan da full, jadi proses teran tu double, first nak teran dia ke pintu then only teran untuk keluarkan dia..the process, takyah cakapla, siap ada adegan meneran sambil mengereng lagi, huwaaaa

Mengenangkan 'keegoan' diri, vote No to epidural..

so seri la sekarang nampaknya.

hmm right now hanya mampu berdoa ajelah, tapi tengok la mode of delivery canne..if doc decide nak induce, might as well perhaps i will consider epidural hugely in my decision making.

if jadi kembar air insyaAllah, moga-moga dipermudahkan jalan keluar baby maka i will try my best not to take epidural..

but i guess the biggest obstacle is myself...this tiny brain of mine pon asyik feeding painful stories to myself, might as well me rase mcm chicken out a bit?

Ya Allah bimbingla saya ke jalan yang Engkau ketahui paling baik untuk kita, amiiinnn

so end result masih seri la ni....huwwaaa

Breast pump yang ok?

baby ni saya bertekad untuk breast feeding.

so saya pon berjalan2 la survey breast pump yang sesuai for myself, considering that it is one of the accessories needed in completing my mission, hihihihih

tapi hubby ckap, going for too many window shopping will not assist dalam memperbanyakkan susu badan..hahahha, kelakar lak ayat tu tapi i objected gak, i said says who..my theory is, when we window shopped, we're kinda happy, relaxed and it will definitely promotes to breast milk production..!

balik pada topic tu, im torn in between avent single elect pump or medela freestyle terus. i preferred avent but the reviews didnt really sided them but weighed more towards medela brand..so tu yang dalam dilemma ni..
ingat nak beli satu yang i deemed reliable and need not to worry much about it later on,put aside milk production but in terms of the breastpump itself,-cepat rosak ke, ada parts dia cpt haus ke, tu semua la tu...

anyhow, i guess i still have time to consider, consider and consider..harap2 berjaya la mission kali ni, insyaAllah!

8 months and loads of pounds heavier!

im at my 32 weeks now, mengah!

still with my daily routine, to n fro kl, by bus luckily, if the condition requires than kene go by car la..

for now am sustaining the hardships, masih bole lagi but already jalan like tellytubbies, hey mind you, im trying to stabilize my G-point now, hehe..

cuma third baby ni ( second although miscarriage i still consider its my second child ), mmg ada kelainan nya berbanding sewaktu carried Zikry dulu..

1) although i shed off pounds yang gained waktu carry zikry dulu, still waktu confinement i gained weights,jadi back to square one! sob sobbb
2) dulu dengar je org kata if preg bila umur dah tua sket, akan rase cepat penat,now im experiencing it, but luckily masih boleh tolerate lagi..huh!
3) agak cranky juga, but with certain ppl, annoyed ones of course, hehe compared waktu carry zikry dulu i was more patient!
4) working atmosphere is different than before, therefore it has its own challenges in its own league, so behold!

hmm kalo nak list down mmg panjang la, cukup la tu, heheh

kalo ikot zikry dulu lahir awal 2 weeks, jadi kalo ikut EDD baby ni, maknanya end Oct la yea?

tak kisahla, asalkan baby lahir tu sihat, cukup sihat no complications, im happy enough..alhamdulillah mudah-mudahan..amiiin..