Trusted with life, dont take for granted!

Baru balik dr ziarah my beloved kazen, Yah kt spital. Congrats darling on your newborn. Siap ada kejutan happy mothers day lagi by management, i yg ziarah pon dpt tempias, hihi dpt la skali goody pack, tenkiuu kpj seremban!

 

Anyhow entry today bersimpang siur skit. Pasal life baby yg nk dilahirkan n entrusted to mom dan pasal life kita sendiri yang di entrusted kan pada doctor..ok gentle reminder; statements suma berpasak pada qada & qadar Allah ye, i mean semua berlaku dgn keizinan-Nya..

Bila baby dlm perut, mommy yg entrusted utk give them good food tru placenta, ye lah apa yg kita mkn suma smpai pada dia..apa yg mommy rasa suma babies rasa! MasyaAllah hebat kan, tu la relationship tu sgt exponential, berkadar langsung..

Bila time nk deliver plak, kita entrust our life to Dr, how they want to handle..to what extent also the risk they are willing to take. Risk involves decision making yang can be so crucial at some point. Ive been at the crossroad, but i trust my Dr to take decision professional-ly dgn penuh tawakkal dan penyerahan pada Allah. Every second counts. 

Tu la maksudnya entrusted with life. So to all mommies to be, jgn lupa take good food, supplement adalah sgt2 essential for foetus wellbeing. Sooo bloody 

important, example sufficient Vit B/asid folic utk elak spina bifida, iron for blood n byk lg..

Im reachable at 017-6617882 k guys..❤️❤️❤️, take care!

Baby owh babyy

owh baby dalam perut mama ni, mama harap sgt baby dapat 'turun' ke laluan dengan selamat dan sejahtera..bukan apa, bukan ke waktu check awal minggu aritu doc ishak da cakap yg jalan dah buka, cuma baby je yg masih terawang2 lagi kat atas tu..al kisahnye if baby da turun, mmg skrang ni kita tengah berbicara secara live la...

baby, mama doa byk2 pada Allah moga dipermudahkan segalanya untuk kita berdua..if baby nk dok lama skit dlm perut mama ni pon takpe, mama no hal tapi when the right time comes baby turun la yea, mama harap takde la floating sgt mcam abang zikry..

mama tau baby is a good boy, sbb waktu mama tulis ni pon mama can feels ure kicking me inside, i know ure trying to show some feedback to me..

cant wait to meet you..:)

Menghitung hari..

alhamdulillah im at my mid 37 weeks now..kalo ikotkan time zikry, dah kua da ni, this baby my gynae said if by 38th weeks there's not yet sign of natural delivery, i might need to be induced..

reason being, my placenta is already ripening and nearly completing its maturity..once it's kinda overipened, thus is will indirectly affecting its efficiencies in assisting the baby in terms of providing good filteration for baby's urine and etc..

jadi saya ini sedang dalam mode pasrah lah nampaknya..bukan apa, kalo diizinkan Allah, saya takmo la induce, byk version saya dengar induce ni sakit..mmg la bersalin tu sakit kan,takleh lari mana unless youre under drugs perscription-epidural etc..

so conclusion nye saya rase i have to tune back those 'small talks' in this little brain of mine..either way pon mmg kene go through that pain so might as well endure sajalah..*but hoowwwww? haaaaa..banyak2 ingatkan Allah, dan yakinlah segala aturanNya itu adalah yang terbaik untuk kita, mudah mudahan..amiiinnn

Epidural-Yes or No

Mengenangkan episode zikry bersalin, hmm memang rasenya vote Yes to epidural..

Flashback-zikry is still floating although dah engage. bukaan da full, jadi proses teran tu double, first nak teran dia ke pintu then only teran untuk keluarkan dia..the process, takyah cakapla, siap ada adegan meneran sambil mengereng lagi, huwaaaa

Mengenangkan 'keegoan' diri, vote No to epidural..

so seri la sekarang nampaknya.

hmm right now hanya mampu berdoa ajelah, tapi tengok la mode of delivery canne..if doc decide nak induce, might as well perhaps i will consider epidural hugely in my decision making.

if jadi kembar air insyaAllah, moga-moga dipermudahkan jalan keluar baby maka i will try my best not to take epidural..

but i guess the biggest obstacle is myself...this tiny brain of mine pon asyik feeding painful stories to myself, might as well me rase mcm chicken out a bit?

Ya Allah bimbingla saya ke jalan yang Engkau ketahui paling baik untuk kita, amiiinnn

so end result masih seri la ni....huwwaaa

Breast pump yang ok?

baby ni saya bertekad untuk breast feeding.

so saya pon berjalan2 la survey breast pump yang sesuai for myself, considering that it is one of the accessories needed in completing my mission, hihihihih

tapi hubby ckap, going for too many window shopping will not assist dalam memperbanyakkan susu badan..hahahha, kelakar lak ayat tu tapi i objected gak, i said says who..my theory is, when we window shopped, we're kinda happy, relaxed and it will definitely promotes to breast milk production..!

balik pada topic tu, im torn in between avent single elect pump or medela freestyle terus. i preferred avent but the reviews didnt really sided them but weighed more towards medela brand..so tu yang dalam dilemma ni..
ingat nak beli satu yang i deemed reliable and need not to worry much about it later on,put aside milk production but in terms of the breastpump itself,-cepat rosak ke, ada parts dia cpt haus ke, tu semua la tu...

anyhow, i guess i still have time to consider, consider and consider..harap2 berjaya la mission kali ni, insyaAllah!

8 months and loads of pounds heavier!

im at my 32 weeks now, mengah!

still with my daily routine, to n fro kl, by bus luckily, if the condition requires than kene go by car la..

for now am sustaining the hardships, masih bole lagi but already jalan like tellytubbies, hey mind you, im trying to stabilize my G-point now, hehe..

cuma third baby ni ( second although miscarriage i still consider its my second child ), mmg ada kelainan nya berbanding sewaktu carried Zikry dulu..

1) although i shed off pounds yang gained waktu carry zikry dulu, still waktu confinement i gained weights,jadi back to square one! sob sobbb
2) dulu dengar je org kata if preg bila umur dah tua sket, akan rase cepat penat,now im experiencing it, but luckily masih boleh tolerate lagi..huh!
3) agak cranky juga, but with certain ppl, annoyed ones of course, hehe compared waktu carry zikry dulu i was more patient!
4) working atmosphere is different than before, therefore it has its own challenges in its own league, so behold!

hmm kalo nak list down mmg panjang la, cukup la tu, heheh

kalo ikot zikry dulu lahir awal 2 weeks, jadi kalo ikut EDD baby ni, maknanya end Oct la yea?

tak kisahla, asalkan baby lahir tu sihat, cukup sihat no complications, im happy enough..alhamdulillah mudah-mudahan..amiiin..

** Allah is supergreat **

the motto what doesnt kill me makes me stronger works for me couple of times before when i've had few mishaps in my life..but the recent event collapsed me.

because? i didnt see this coming. i didnt even think that it might occured within my life journey...but it did. OK, compared to other ppl yes im still considered lucky since i have baby Z with me..but im just a human being, i need time to recover.

what happened? my lovely foetus heartbeat stopped beating at its 9 weeks. i came to know during my usual routine check up at its 10 n 1/2 weeks.it's seriously took me by suprise. ive heard its heartbeat during its 7 weeks, it was so damn strong, in fact stronger than baby Z during his time..that surely gives me good sign right but yeah who am i to decide my lifepath...

i accept whatever had happened to me, but like i said im just a normal homo sapiens. i need time to recover and grieve. a famous quote once says, grieving is the best healing medicine actually..so i think i'll hang to that at the moment.

whatever had tookplace, Allah surely has better plans for me, insyaAllah.i have faith. and im satisfied, since i think ive loved the foetus unconditionally during our moment 'together'..

I pray for dear readers not to undergo the same grievances and depression that Ive had to endure, but have faith and you'll be alright..